A pipe between my lips is the barrel of a gun Every crystal is a bullet I pull the trigger as I light the torch Filling myself with lead to try and fill the holes in my head Only to burn more of my life away Playing Russian roulette with fate Nothing was ever enough to satisfy me I wanted more, I wanted more, I wanted more I don't know what I want but it isn't this I don't know what I want but it isn't this In a moment I let go, in the next I'm going back I can't stop seeking out that icy heart attack This will be the death of me but at least I don't want to die At least as long as I can still get high But was it ever worth it when every single time It made me fucking miserable Nothing was ever enough to satisfy me I wanted more, I wanted more, I wanted more I don't know what I want but it isn't this I don't know what I want but it isn't this