When I went down to the smoke shop to buy myself a torch
I wonder if they knew what I would use it for
I wonder if it's really fucking obvious
Cause I broke it before I walked out the door
But I didn't notice that I did until I got back home
So I'm killing all my lighters and my thumb
I'm running out of luck and I don't give a fuck
So I'll smoke up until my face is numb
I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high
I think I might succumb to paranoia
I haven't slept or eaten for three days
I don't know who but someone's out to get me
I am a fucking disgrace
I think I might give in and be a tweaker
I could go insane and that would be the end
But it hurt me when someone I loved did just that
And I could never do that to my friends
I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high
I hope my roommate doesn't know
What I'm fucking doing in our shared home
I'm rewiring my brain into
A concoction of stimulants and brain stew
My eyes feel like they're gonna bleed
Dried up and bulging out my skull
My mouth is dry my face is numb
Fucked up and spun out in my room
I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high
I wonder what I look like from the outside
If I look like I'm dying or I'm fine
I'm so fucked up I barely know which way is up
I wonder if that stranger knows I'm high