What if I told you that I love you?
Would you tell me that you love me back?
What if I told you that I miss you?
Would you tell me that you miss me back?
I did it on my time so she rode with someone new
And just making my life worse, it didn't even help, yeah (would you believe me?)
What if I told that I'm sittin' reminiscin' 'bout the nights?
And my demons getting closer and they're tryin' to take my life
And every night when you was wrong, but I was sitting by your side
The old me has died, and a new me has cried
And I'm trying to put my fly me on a face lift
And one day this pain will be weightless
And they don't want to see us shining so they hate us
And we be cruisin' for the stars in a spaceship
So, I smoke the pain away, think about them rainy days
And take my life, yeah, that suicide has many ways
And ain't got much of, so I come into the music way, call
When I smoke it takes the pain away
So, I smoke the pain away, think about them rainy days
And take my life, yeah, that suicide has many ways
And ain't got much of, so I come into the music way, call
When I smoke it takes the pain away
And I can't feel emotion so my heart tends to ice, man
I had to roll the dice and I had to do it twice
When you're too nice to people, there's always a price
And I'm sitting here and thinking 'bout the days when I was right
And I'm thinkin' 'bout the days when you sat and you played me
The same days that you promised you wouldn't break me
The same days that you said you'd never hate me
But it is what it is lately
Ice in my veins, I be sittin' dreamin' (what if I told you that I love you?)
It's like 1 or 3 a.m. and I ain't even sleeping (would you tell me that you love me back?)
I be deep in the life and it has me bleedin' (what if I told you that I miss you?)
So I pour a double cup and this shit has me leanin' (would you tell me that you miss me back?)
14 years battling own thoughts and (what if I tell you I need you, would you tell me you need me?)
15 years when I won in that sport and
16 years, three deaths, broken chords
Now with that knowledge I'm sitting here I'm using
What if I told that I'm sittin' reminiscin' 'bout the nights
And my demons getting closer, and they trying to take my life
And every night when you was wrong but I was sitting by your side
The old me has died, and a new me has cried
And I'm trying to put my fly me on a pace list
And one day this pain will be weightless
And they don't want to see us shining so they hate us
And we be cruisin' for the stars in a spaceship
Bridges burn now you're sitting on the surface
Parts really hurt, why'd you give all them chances
It's all short term, hopeless, now you're high
Fuck love, now you're left in all of this darkness
All of these years and I done it on my own
Had no fatherly figure, so I done it on my own
And man of the house, never even called my phone
To check up on his son to say, "Son, are you feeling alone?"
But you left me all on my own, I'm so alone
I keep crying and praying, but you never call my phone
Think it's best we parted ways behind these closed doors
So they don't vision me here, and fuck this shit, man, I'm bored
Before your insecurities, I tried to make it right
And trust me it was me and you every single night
Every night non-stop and you were playing on my mind
Every night in my thoughts in my mind
What if I told that I'm sittin' reminiscin' 'bout the nights
And my demons getting closer and they trying to take my life
And every night when you was wrong but I was sitting by your side
The old me has died and a new me has cried
Ice in my veins I be sittin' dreamin'
It's like 1 or 3 a.m. and I ain't even sleeping