Momma never said something so truthful as Holding me crying saying: This too shall pass Words were fuel to put me back on a useful track Repeat them to myself every brutal attack The only problem is I feel that I move too fast Stressin' over how long my youth will last Now I miss them simple days where I would just pray away And my problems were all solved at communal mass As a baby I was baptized, till I capsized, felt that all my life I was living under fat lies Now I stay up inside and get mad high, let that childlike mind just pass me right by I would wake up every morning, Mom would drive me to school Classes started getting boring so I would just act a fool I'd make the whole class laugh, problems then were minuscule Now I'm waking up hungover in the late afternoon The problem is this solemn kid couldn't handle a full grown subconsciousness And now I feel impoverished and exhausted Because the thought of being social is monstrous Now I'm overly cautious and I just agree Every single girl is flawless and out of my league Chained down by being nauseous when I used to be free And at the end of the day, I just wanna be me but Every time I open my mouth and I try to vocalize, I find My throat begins to close up and I hold all of my feelings inside, my mind These hungover mornings I lay in my bed and just rewind Stressing over stupid shit I probably shouldn't have said last night Momma never said something so truthful as Holding me crying saying: This too shall pass Words were fuel to put me back on a useful track Repeat them to myself every brutal attack Now I'm 23 years old and I'm face to face With this grown me so I just stand and contemplate Staring in the mirror all day and just debate Now that I'm an adult was it worth the wait I got no clue what I'm doing this generation is losing Their goddamn minds when they graduating from schooling Examinating my ruins, they asking me how I'm doing I say I can't complain, this migraine keeps on pursuing Tourette's is on fire, stress has got me in a choke hold Turning down opportunities just by the boatload Ditching auditions, positions switching, I'm the joke yo Got my own ambitions, I don't want to go broke though Persona's in remission, who I was when I was young He has been laid to rest from always biting his tongue I repeat these mantras back when I'm feeling high strung Breathing in to rediscover my voice through my lungs but Every time I open my mouth and I try to vocalize, I find My throat begins to close up and I hold all of my feelings inside, my mind These hungover mornings I lay in my bed and just rewind Stressing over stupid shit I probably shouldn't have said last night The time is now I am in control Unconditional Love Om Meditation slips me into my mind it's all fine Anxiety declines, full thoughts they align At peace with myself I feel so divine, why does the me that shine have to be so confined We all have a voice that deserves to be heard Expectations of oneself can make these words blurred Ideas differed, dismissed as absurd, thinking everyone hates you no proof, just inferred I love my goddamn self, wanna shout it from the rooftops Give back to my community, bring from the boondocks Have us come together, no more drama with the blue cops The only thing shooting through the night is the moonrocks So blast your boombox, I got so much to say I've got albums to drop and mistakes to make I've got hearts to break and I've got love to give I guess what I'm saying is I just gotta live and I'm gonna Cause this too shall pass But until then Every time I open my mouth and I try to vocalize, I find My throat begins to close up and I hold all of my feelings inside, my mind These hungover mornings I lay in my bed and just rewind Stressing over stupid shit I didn't even say last night