Hiding behind cigarettes and a bitter smile When was the last time you felt alive You shouldn't have to pull out your eyes To find a better outlook on life With everything I have I want to hate you But I can't seem to break the routine With everything I have I want to hate you You keep me tied down and I can't ever leave And I put myself through hell To look better in the eyes of someone else I'll be the fuel to your fire and I'll let it burn So let me fall asleep and don't wake me up Or show me what I've been missing while I've been blinking So just throw me the rope and I'll hang myself again for the thousandth time You keep letting it slack and bringing me back when I'm pleading for this to end And I put myself through hell To look better in the eyes of someone else I'm looking up at the clouds Be my silver lining Let me leave the past behind me In the dark I see you shining Take all this hate from inside me Just be my silver lining Let me leave the past behind In the dark I can see you Take all this hate from inside Where are you when I need you And I've been biting my nails for this Dug in my palms clenched into a fist I should have known I'm too weak to resist Bury me with my ignorance