Face down and eyes shut, why am I
A stranger in my own mind
Just get me to leave, yeah out of sight
Oh my
Don't feed the animal
Oh no
Can't beat the animal
Oh no no (no)
Please don't make it stronger (no)
I do my best to get away
Won't play along with it
Making a mess in my head
I gotta get over it
And I don't really wanna face it
So I'm the only one to blame yeah
And every time I close my eyes
I get a little scared and I
I'm running from the things I hide
Every time I close my eyes
I'm tryna find my way out
I'm better with the lights around
Every time I close my eyes
Oo baby I'm stirred not shaken
Calling me crazy
Please don't talk about me
I need love around me
I thought I needed inspiration but what I needed was some balance
I need more balance on my bank account
Balance in the way I'm living life I need to stretch it out
Balance in my body got these toxins gotta puke it out
I'm running so my thoughts don't
Might run into my old foes
While running in my sports clothes
And it's okay if you don't like me not everyone has good taste
And we're always on the same damn page
It's okay if you don't understand it
And every time I close my eyes
I get a little scared and I
I'm running from the things I hide
Every time I close my eyes
I'm tryna find my way out
I'm better with the lights around
Every time I close my eyes
Since I was eleven I have known
That I was born to live and die alone
Had to put my heart to the smoke
Still I come alive in the smoke
It's hard for me to breathe through the dust
And it's hard for me to see through the lust
Pressure pressure pressure
I'm trying my hardest to hold it together
I swear that a nigga could cry right now
Close my eyes and then leave me here
Count you in and you count me out
And that's why a nigga couldn't sleep this year
It's hard, all this shit that I barely ask
Just thank god that I came this far
To be a star, you have got to start with a spark
So it's now or never
Close my eyes all I see is a boy that's tryna do better
So imma do better
Im scared that I'm losing my own race
Im scared that I still do the same things
Im scared that my dream aint a real thing
And imma stay right in the same place
And every time I close my eyes
I get a little scared and I
I'm running from the things I hide
Every time I close my eyes
I'm tryna find my way out
I'm better with the lights around
Every time I close my eyes