I hate myself so much That I cannot be loved I wonder what it feels like To feel something so nice I wanna be your excuse For your bad behaviour I wonder what it feels like To feel something so nice I still stare at myself looking for some kind of help I cannot believe that this is who I'm gonna be Amen is what they say when I am breaking I don't think I should be the one you should be saving You tell me I could be somebody's someone to love But I'll give you reasons why I'll never be loved I don't wanna leave this But I feel so much risk I wanna trust my gut But you make me feel yuck Why don't you listen When I say I'm different I wanna trust my gut But you make me feel so yuck I still stare at myself looking for some kind of help I cannot believe that this is who I'm gonna be Amen is what they say when I am breaking I don't think I should be the one you should be saving You tell me I could be somebody's someone to love But I'll give you reasons why I'll never be loved I still stare at myself looking for some kind of help I wonder what it feels like to feel something so nice I cannot believe that this is who I'm gonna be I wonder what it feels like to feel something so nice Amen is what they say when I am breaking I don't think I should be the one you should be saving You tell me I could be somebody's someone to love But I'll give you reasons why I'll never be loved