Look around, think I need to find a better view
I'm not around, ten steps here ahead of you
Remind myself daily there's not another you
Victory my I follow the V that's a W
I'm growin' but can't let myself get comfortable
Don't nothin' motivate you like that hunger do
Been thinkin' bout goin' ghost for a month or two
Put my all into this music ain't got much to lose
Cause' I done held a lot of L's my whole life
A lot of people left when it ain't go right
Gettin' older, sick and tired of this hoe life
Seeing people's weddings really wanna find my own wife
But for now I let this hoe take my whole pipe
Regretful when she leave cause' it don't sit upon my soul right
Transmuting energy so when she leave I don't glow bright
Ex said I'm a low life and I'm proving that bitch so right
A broke felon lustin' over women
Head above the water barely in these bills I'm swimmin'
Drowning in the sorrow from my past decisions
Wear that bravado on my sleeve so you won't see I'm timid
I could sit here on these songs and act like
Everything is going perfectly but
I don't wanna lie to you and
Most importantly, I don't wann lie to me
And I'm like fuck everybody
Don't invite me to your party
Anti-social wouldn't talk to you while rollin' off the molly
I was tryin' social distance way before Coronavirus
Been thinkin' bout deleting my socials and just goin' private
Ain't tryna kick it that's wicked, I'm tryin' handle business
If you don't get it I ain't trippin' I don't need your friendship
Put an X through my circle like the operator sign
I got me, myself and I so God told me I'll be fine
Look, I'm tryin' grow dog
Spent my life under the influence it's old dog
Look, I'm tryin' grow dog
Spent my life trapped in the system that shit old dog
Tired of wastin' time, that clock keep tickin' faster
Miss the days when I was 9, care free little bastard
Now my life is full of problems and I ain't got the answers
Put myself in situations that slowly kill me like cancer
I think I'm dying on the inside
Won't never ask for help I got too much pride
Damn, won't never ask for help I got too much pride
You know I heard a man say once
Pride will cost you everything but leave you with nothing in return
I believe pride and ego are good to a certain extent but
We must learn to channel these emotions correctly