The person that you can completely map
And who only does positive things for you
Is like A you don't know that person
B they're not communicating with you nor you with them
Maybe they're just subordinating themselves to you or you to them
And in our growing
A real relationship is a wrestling match
It's a grappling, it's a grappling phenomena
That you both emerge transformed from my
And that's what people want, they don't want a pushover
Not, not unless there's something wrong with them
You do not want me inside of my feelings
I promise for you it will not end so nicely
I hear these rappers they braggin n boasting
Bout money n women but all their attentions don't tend to entice me
I do not care about the car that you drive
And how much that it was or how expensive it might be
Instead
Why don't you try to write something that
Actually benefits all of our psyche's
I got
Pressure to pay all my bills, anxiety
I feel is real
I got these women, they tell me they love me
But behind my back I know they play the field
Escaping my feels with liquor I drink
I got a habit of overthinking every thought in my life
And it's making me tear up thinking the thoughts that I think
I got a habit of falling in love with some people
Who don't love me back
Don't love me back
I tell myself that I'm done with the drinking
But then on the weekend I often relapse
I often relapse
I got a habit of not sharing feelings
I overthink life and I live in the past
I live in the past
I got these habits of mine
These habits of mine
I got a habit of falling in love with some people
Who don't love me back,Who don't love me back
I tell myself that I'm done with the drinking
But then on the weekend I often relapse
I often relapse
I got a habit of not sharing feelings
I overthink life and I live in the past
I live in the past
I got these habits of mine, these habits of mine
I learned that habits can make or break you
That's a key lesson
Respect it don't repress it
See these weekend benders
Are the reason you're feeling this depression
A man's habit is the definition of his true self
That's a reflection
Seperate logic and feelings
I only listen to the feelings inside of my gut, that's a c section
Keep guessing
What I do next
Cuz you'll never see me coming, like I'm jacking off inside the door
The path that I am on is something beautiful
You put me in the studio
I'm acting like a rapid dog
I wish that I could say to you I'm sorry
But the truth is that I've had enough
I went from a student to a teacher
From a master to a padawon
The habits I enhabit are all because of heartbreak and the misery
I had to learn to overcome adversity inside my life
And other fuckin reasons I could rattle off
I'm second guessing everything
And all that does is sabotage everything good in my life right now
Don't act shook cuz I cut ties now
I got a habit of falling in love
With some people who don't love me back
You're the reason that lines in this rhyme right now goddamn
I got, I got, I got a habit of falling in love
With some people who don't love me back
Who don't love me back
I got a habit of telling myself I'm done with the drinking
But then on the weekend I often relapse
I often relapse
I got a habit of not sharing feelings
I overthink life and I live in the past
I live in the past
I got these habits of mine, these habits of mine
I got a habit of falling in love
With some people who don't love me back
Who don't love me back
I tell myself that I'm done with the drinking
But then on the weekends I often relapse
I often relapse
I got a habit of not sharing feelings
I overthink life and I live in the past
I llive in the past
I got these habits of mine, these habits of mine
Yo that shit was fire
But I have a question
What the fuck was that
Jacking off in the dark
Inside the dark what