Maybe this is all just a projection Maybe there was never a connection We were always walking in two different directions I was just an option, not your object of affection Dancing at your oldest sister's wedding We drank too much but I can still remember I was getting dizzy and all it was that hit me Something 'bout the way I felt was so disorienting I wish I could get back all of that time I wish I never found out what it's like To love someone and lose 'em I feel so fucking stupid What a convincing illusion What a convincing illusion Maybe you were bad at being honest Maybe I took the whole thing out of context I tried my best to blame you And I hate that I can't hate you It's nobody's fault you couldn't fall the way I wanted I wish I could get back all of that time (all of that time) I wish I never found out what it's like To love someone and lose 'em I feel so fucking stupid What a convincing illusion (what a convincing illusion) What a convincing illusion Sometimes I wish that you'd still call me up Say that I don't, but I still give a fuck about you When I'm not around you Sometimes I wish that you'd still call me up So I can pretend like I don't give a fuck about you 'Cause I'm not around you I wish I could get back all of that time (all of that time) I wish I never found out what it's like To love someone and lose 'em I feel so fucking stupid What a convincing illusion What a convincing illusion (what a convincing illusion) I wish I never let you in my life (in my life) I wish I never found out what it's like To love someone and lose 'em I feel so fucking stupid What a convincing illusion What a convincing illusion Oh What a convincing illusion