Which one did you fuck harder my best friend or my self esteem Remember when you got drunk And said you were the only one dumb enough to love me I don't want to live just following your script The actress is too young and the director is a narcissist This isn't normal, this isn't okay But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was Eighteen You bought me beer because you were too old to go to prom with me I threw up in the bathroom, my friends made memories And yeah, you looked real cool to a girl still in high school Cause you don't have to chase anything that you can fool This isn't normal, this isn't okay But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was Eighteen I see you out with younger versions of me While I'm trying to find who I used to be I'm terrified that you and I will always be chasing eighteen This isn't normal, this isn't okay But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was Eighteen