I have a dream each night of a version of me I can't believe I started drinking at a quarter to three You always wanted me to blow up, but I struggle to breathe 'Cause I can't really stand the thought of being sober this week (dercept) She said, "I'm on one, baby, I got a problem I thought I had my friends, but I guess I must've lost 'em I just wanna be happy, I know I'm not content Giving up on my friendships, I'm fucked up more than my ex" I guess I get it, this is everything you wanted, right? You like to act like you were happy I guess I get it, this is something that you do at night You knew the script, yeah, you were acting Why can't I remember what it feels like to be strong? You were all I ever wanted, now I want nothing at all You can't use me up, discard me, I'm not garbage, I'm not trash You're an anchor on my soul, you took the me I can't get back She said, "I'm on one, baby, I got a problem I thought I had my friends, but I guess I must have lost 'em I just wanna be happy, I know I'm not content Giving up on my friendships, I'm fucked up more than my ex"