The day you died I lost all hope
I felt like I was drowning and I want you to know
I felt your pain, the blame you felt
You raised a fragile teen that really needed your help
And don't you tell me that you love me if you're leaving, that's so fucked
Shit, you can't raise me then discard me, fall asleep and not wake up
I've been working on myself and I don't know if I can change
Am I really who I think I am? I guess I'm just the same
I don't blame you but you're all that I had
Now I can't save you, there's no way you'll be back
And I don't hate you but I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here I wouldn't cry or be sad
I don't blame you, but you're all that I had
Now I can't save you, there's no way you'll be back
And I don't hate you but I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here I wouldn't cry or be sad
Yeah, I knew that it wouldn't matter if I could do
All of the things that you wanted
I got what I needed, I made you a promise
I trusted your words but you couldn't stay honest
I called up my friends but I'm more of a check
They dollar every call or they leave me on read
I needed help, fuck what you said
I need a drink now or I'm dead
This isn't sunshine, this is real life
It's not butterflies when your mom dies
And you wake up to the same sight
Your bed frame, the same size
I don't blame you, you can't save me
I hate feeling low but you made me
And I fucked off and you lost touch
And when life left I kept breaking, like
I don't blame you but you're all that I had
Now I can't save you, there's no way you'll be back
And I don't hate you but I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here I wouldn't cry or be sad
I don't blame you but you're all that I had
Now I can't save you, there's no way you'll be back
And I don't hate you but I wish that I had
'Cause if you were never here I wouldn't cry or be sad