Lonely am I though I try to look otherwise Laugh or smile Disguise or rather hide The insecurities I feed You ask Why mask What the fuck is really going on with me? Why should you care And I remember thinking to myself God if you're up there send me down someone who gives a fuck It's hard living, it's hard times in my mind Doubt everything around me yet I say I'm fine (You're not fine) I tell myself I'm alright (You're not right) It's insane the things I wish that I had felt Like the piercing sting of a fathers belt Because tough love is still love Love's tough, I know this much But I'll tell you right now motherfucks, life's harder when you got none And yet still I try They say the guilty dog barks first, well i've been barking til my fucking throat hurts, X2 And i shout out all of these dealings in the hopes that somebodies listening 20 years I've tried to escape what makes me, me Someone listen, that is all I've ever wanted for years