I promised myself By this age, I'd be someone Or at least, someone else Not on stage, but on top of The fuzz in my brain It all seems so awful frightening I've got nothing to lose But loose screws that could use some tending to I can't work a job if I'm not stable I tried 9-5 and I'm not able The real world is using me I'm at war with myself and I'm losing I promised myself By this age, I'd be someone Or at least, someone else Not on stage, but on top of The fuzz in my brain It all seems so awful frightening I've got nothing to lose But loose screws that could use some tending to So I'll Bury my words and my promises For the day that I learn to be confident I'm not dying yet I promised myself By this age, I'd be someone Or at least, someone else Not on stage, but on top of The fuzz in my brain It all seems so awful frightening I've got nothing to lose But loose screws that could use some tending to There's a hole in my heart Where I used to bleed Since we started growing apart A part of me retreats Inside You decide Is there a burnout or a burning light In me?