I am catastrophe personified I know because I help create the fight Confused by what's a dream and waking life I am the only me I'll never know ♪ I know the tragedy I need to feel Alive and so ill ♪ Here lies a part of me that never heals Now I'm the only me I'll never show I wasted every little thing I live for I choked when everything I love derailed Now I know all I ever really wanted Was to lose this hatred in my heart ♪ I know the atrophy of my belief has taken hold Over and over I feel anxiety will never leave me time to breathe Not 'til it's over I know it's my fault