I am such an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Tryna redirect my mental, yeah I am such an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Yeah, yeah I am just an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Trying hard to redirect my mental My mental yeah (Iris) I am just an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Trying hard to redirect my mental I am such an asshole yeah One, two I am such an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Trying hard to redirect my mental I am just an asshole yeah I am such an asshole yeah I am such an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Trying hard to redirect my mental I am just an asshole I am such an asshole yeah I am such an asshole Yeah that's what you told me Fade into the background RIP to the old me Now I'm in the foreground Lights flashing on me Love me for a night Get an Uber in the morning, yeah I can't move I dont wanna keep living Only way to go is drugged up, wrist dripping And I wanna call you back but my phone keeps tripping And I hope she not mad when she find me in the kitchen Find me in the kitchen and I'm doing something bad Hope they leave me here cause i don't wanna make nobody mad Really can't control things I'm doing when im sad They don't know the whole story, how you stabbed me in the back It's such a hassle Try to crawl out, but I think I'm trapped though Wake up early, fix my problems with a capsule Medication turning me into an asshole Build walls but i'm still not fortified Smoke all day can't even enjoy the high These withdrawals and the pain has got mortified Your absence made itself immortalized Hate looking through these tired eyes Can't keep up this disguise Took too long to realize It's no one's fault but mine I am such an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Trying hard to redirect my mental I am just an asshole yea I am such an asshole I am such an asshole All alone in the middle of a castle Trying hard to redirect my mental I am just an asshole yea I am such an asshole