Issues with my esteem since I was a little dude
Elementary I hated my life, I felt like I was ridiculed
Popular for all the wrong reasons back in middle school
Only black kid they treated my hair like a petting zoo
Felt like the only kid there that the girls didn't choose
High school got the confidence to do things I didn't do
Had some setbacks here and there but thank God that I didn't lose
Grandad was a star in his country, now I'm the guy he's living through
I'ma die or I'll win and God told me I'll be living proof
Only time I feel like I'm complete is when I'm in the booth
You couldn't even walk a mile
Or a step in my shoes
Ahhh, what you trying get into
What you trying get into
Growing pains since a jit, mama I ain't been cool
Out with the old, lil bro, yeah I been knew
Ascending into madness, yeah Beezy who goin fix you
Who goin fix you, Beezy who goin fix you
All those issues, Beezy who can fix you
All those issues, God can He fix you
All those issues, Beezy who goin fix you
*Cough, cough* okay
I've been ascending into madness
I've been ascending into madness
I've been ascending into madness
I've been ascending into madness
I cannot even mask it, all the cameras flashing (haha, they don't care)
Head hurting, sirens passing I might need an aspirin
That's my uuhhh
That's my prideful self
I've been (Zay don't hang up on me please) all by myself
God how you goin give me life inside this hell
God how you goin let my grandad die and not revive his health
How you goin leave my brother on the streets when he prays for help (help)
That's why I needuh get rich to get my people well
We all goin be okay goin get it under my belt
Final lvl when I get LV on the belt
And to my grandma, to my momma, to my father, to my brother
I've had self-hatred and thoughts of dying ever since I was younger
And that's the reason I have this infatuation with finding a woman
I need someone else other than myself for me to feel some
I've been ascending into madness
I've been ascending into madness
I've been ascending into madness
I've been ascending into madness (I hate you so much)
I cannot even mask it, all the cameras flashing (haha, they don't care)
Head hurting, sirens passing I might need an aspirin
(I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much)
(Madness... the state of being mentally ill, especially severely
Ascent. Into. Madness)
I got voices in my head
I think they just want me dead
I got voices in my head
I think they just want me dead
I got voices in my head
Why am I still seeing red
I got voices in my head
But they not going get me dead
My madness makes me, me
I ain't mad at it
My brother tripped out on me but I can't be mad at him
Told pops I'm a street scholar I'm not a college kid
I stay one hundred degrees don't need a degree to accomplish this
Can't accommodate for no lames, I don't need no awkward fits
You going say a eulogy at my funeral before I call it quits
Before I call it quits
Hold on but don't stop the clock, I'ma ball real quick
Lehgetit
Ascent into madness