If today
Was the day
That you would hold me close
And this pain
Swept away
Before I lost my home
I can't remember those feelings
And all those things I believed in
Did you think that I was grieving
You could say my past was my beating
Mama could you tell me, that you loved me
Like you did before?
And if I was a choice
Would you care that I had a voice?
I was your son and now I'm dumb because you told me that
I would be nothing, guess that something
I relate to that
If today
Was the day
That you would hold me close
And this pain
Swept away
Before I lost my home
I can't remember those feelings
And all those things I believed in
Did you think that I was grieving
You could say my past was my beating
I was your mistake
And I know you never want me
Mama cant you help me?
You're the one I'm wanting here
Abusing me through these years
And I'm filling up with these tears
Damage in the face
Have me facing all my fears now
Therapist ain't helping seen relapsing as my help now
I know I am your problem
If you really keep me
Why you gotta hurt me
Everyday I'm hurting
If today
You would say
That I won't let you go
You would see
That I'm me
So maybe you would know
I can't breathe
Filled with grief
Whenever you got cold
Can you please?
Cherish me?
Instead of letting go
If today
Was the day
That you would hold me close
And this pain
Swept away
Before I lost my home
I can't remember those feelings
And all those things I believed in
Did you think that I was grieving
You could say my past was my beating
If today
Was the day
That you would hold me close
And this pain
Swept away
Before I lost my home
I can't remember those feelings
And all those things I believed in
Did you think that I was grieving
You could say my past was my beating