If I could I'd try hard to survive Inside this side o' my life I'm surprised Since I entered the skies in your eyes Silencing the sighs within my spine God, I'm deranged and I feel so mistaken God, I'm insane and I feel so awaken If I could I'd change and be so nice Instead I'm sincerely mystified Without a place to hide all my might Begging for a swift and sweet reply God, I'm deranged and I feel so mistaken God, I'm insane and I feel so awaken I'm an apprentice, I'm learning to fly I'm swinging between the hurt and the lies 'Cause I'm an apprentice, I've studied both sides Inspired to live but yearning to die I'm yearning to die