Rethorical questions beneath the smiles Sighs of relief masking inward cries So many consequences to save myself So many answers is this worth the time One of thousands fingers crossed One of thousands numbers lost Why am I alive Why didn't i die Who did I destroy White gowns cover scars Who decides revenge What did I deserve Fake smiles cover pain Unsatisfied with answers Why am I alive Skeptical of my powers Why didn't I die Why am I alive Why didn't I die