As I stared up at the sky, From a bottom where I'm surrounded by an endless nothing, I begged for an answer. For Anything. It was complete desperation. I asked myself, how did I end up here? But I knew the answer before the question ever left my lips Sometimes I wonder how I'm still here. A scared little boy making every decision based on fear I spent my whole life wondering why is this happening to me? I didn't want to find the answer, Because every time I found one it was me. I had to face it. No more running. It's time I live my life with some fucking integrity. And be here for my loved ones. Because they were always there for me. Somehow they loved me when all I felt and knew was shame The ties of who I was have been set free. I was always searching for that something but never held it My eyes they then opened up with clarity. For the first time in my life I found freedom from me Now that all my fear is gone The clarity has shown me who I am and everything I'll be. The gift of clarity