As I watch the clock My whole heart starts to drop Times ticking away It doesn't stop On that mission again Leaving behind what matters the most The tears cloud my vision I pretend to be fine but that's a joke Inside I'm torn to shreds Before I fly high I numb the head It's part nerves part excitement part dread Wish I could tell you Something different instead It's bittersweet I'm off balance My choice hangs in the balance I love the feeling The challenge But I love them more Time to punch the clock The cycle never stops I'm feeling pressure to please To appease all sides and me Don't get me wrong Don't misunderstand I love my work It's my passion I take nothing for granted Not a thing Nothing It's bittersweet I'm off balance My choice hangs in the balance I love the feeling The challenge But I love them more As the long hand marks the minutes On the clock That goes tic then toc My soul is aching My heart is breaking It's bittersweet I'm off balance My choice hangs in the balance I love the feeling The challenge But I love them more But I need them more I need it all To fulfill the call I need balance