I think I get it now I think I figured it out Won't let it slip through my fingers It's got me on my toes, I'm the only one who knows I loose my senses when it lingers And it hurts just a little bit too much Sore to the touch It's a little bit much when I can't find my happy While I'm busy carrying heavy Hearing every song that tells me Just pose and smile and look alive But I'm coming up empty Pretending, pretending happy Lost in a lonely place Where my mind is a maze Picking pixels like they know me well And I watch the color change Feel it go from my face Realizing how much I can tell And it hurts just a little bit too much Sore to the touch It's a little bit much when I can't find my happy While I'm busy carrying heavy Hearing every song that tells me Just pose and smile and look alive But I'm coming up empty Pretending, pretending happy I think I get it now I think I figured it out (So scared of the feeling this time) (Like it's trapped in the back of my mind) I think I get it now I think I figured it out (So scared of the feeling this time) (Like it's trapped in the back of my mind) But I'm coming up empty Pretending, pretending I can't find my happy While I'm busy carrying heavy Hearing every song that tells me Just pose and smile and look alive But I'm coming up empty Pretending, pretending happy