Let down; I'm constantly Years count, so why am I distant now? And the lies that you tied 'round my neck have me held down And I'll waste with the earth So why've I nothing to say, "I'll hold you against me"? Like the hole in my chest, where regret and disappointment lay Like my father would teach me, if he hadn't cowered away My hands, they're weak The earth stains me as I dig through the dirt My soul, I bury deep into the ground where you left me Just to feel you, it kills me So I hold you against me I found the letter that night, you wrote it back to me "I can't breathe, I can't breathe in this house with you here Dear, if you're reading this, it's killing me" I found the letter that night, I wrote it in my sleep "I can't breathe, I can't breathe in this house with you here Dear, if you're reading this, it's you and it kills me" Just to feel you, it kills me Just to feel you, it kills me Just to feel you, it kills me