It took me a long time
But I'm figuring out why
My success always feels like a crime
I don't belong here
But I'm making it work somehow
Let my vision blur to the point where
It all fits when I let it just pan out
Today has been a good day
I wish that they could all be like this
But when you struggle with anxiety
It's so hard to stay positive
It took me a long time
But I'm figuring out why
My success always feels like a crime
It's when I get home
Take off the mask I give the world outside
When I'm all alone
When the ache sets in, and I can't keep the shaking inside
It's like a piece of me crawls out
And helps recall all of the things I did wrong
It's like the ghost of ever present doubt
And it sings a never never ending song
"Let me out,"
It hums off key in me
Rooted in my throat
It strains against my teeth
The air in this room chokes me
It took me a long time
But I'm figuring out why
My success always felt like a crime
I get caught in my own mind
It says I'm wrong all of the time
It's been my friends
That never leave me behind
They are my lifeline
They're always quick to remind
It's okay to ask for help
When your sun doesn't shine