I want to feel your heartbeat against my face I want to hear your heartbeat from your chest I need to know, baby if you want it too I need to know, baby if you love me too Run my fingers through your hair All the while your unaware How could you not know by the way I showed my love to you And how did I not know how close the demons were to you Regret mistakes and show my feelings through expressive faces Will I make it through this depressive state? Shit, I guess we'll wait and see At least the things I wanted to believe They'll say the truth will set you free maybe someday I'll feel relieved Or take like 29 Tylonol, try to drive a car, off a bridge Drowning with a broken spinal cord My mind contorts, in wild forms To try and calm these violent thoughts, that I have got I hate this, I'm extra anxious Life isn't a bitch, life is a waitress Get it served how you ordered no complaining I'm just trying make tips, get some game quick Then tell all the homies that I break bread with all the same shit Go ahead, get defensive I'm the plaintiff What's understood fully does not really need explaining Starting to lose my patience, yet again People coming up to me like we was cool but we were never friends Slamming doors in they face don't let em in