At the age of 15
I was introduced to skating
Back before we would ride together
6 deep on daytons
My first homie a close friend
I met way back when
I remember we did everything
Before your dad had cancer
We used to spend all night spitting all sorts of stupid rhymes
When I hear our old songs from back then
I wanna cry
I remember when you called me saying you wanted to end your life
But I wasn't gonna let you go through with it
At all that night
I remember all of us chillen and kicking on late nights
Since then I've had two kid
It's been nothing but play fights
I understand we at this point
Were too busy with our own lives
Busy with our families but not worried if our friends survived
I don't want be like a deer
Caught in the head lights
Stuck behind the wheel and ground
I'm trying to take flight
Cutting up in the halls way school
We were never acting right
I wish you was here with me Right now Dawg
I'd make it right
Hearing your voice ringing out loud
Through the grape vine
I wish I could see your ass again on FaceTime
I wish I could share my dreams and milestones
With you but I guess this time
I'm gonna have to get mine
I wish I could put you on
Like what you did for me
You told me don't do it for others man
Go Do it for me
So I took your words to heart and put my pen the pad
Jotted down every moments misery and scribbled out my own destiny
I'll make sure
You're name won't cry in infamy
I pray to see you again one day
I hope that you will wait for me
I hate that you left me here to deal with the struggles
Watching your family cry about you standing together in a huddle
I wish you would've met both of my kids before
They unplugged you
And if you were still around they always calling you uncle
I had to watch as they you buried under
Stormy as fuck outside
The reverend was quite cause of gods thunder
And now it's Gods turn to speak
I think he's speaking to me
Showing me vivid memories of how things used to be
Back when we were younger
How I used to looked up to you as my big brother
Mimicked everything you every taught me
I still got the first Stick you bought me
Or about the time you called me up
Saying you need help on a job
And a warm body
Had me waiting out in cold
Used me a bait outside
So they could rob me
But you knew all along
You knew they could've shot me
That was the moment
That I knew You had forgot me
But I made my way through it
When they all doubted me they was all clowning me
You backed me up
Outta the corner
I had to fight my way out
When they was surrounding me
You called me ya nigga
You was my dawg
Like minds work together
It grinds my gears
Like A ticking time bomb
How quickly you reacted
When you switched over to God
Knowing you're not here to watch
How times change
You were the spring and the cog
Sometimes it's hard to break away
From the pain you gave
I pray that you help me pave the way
For better days
When I think of you
Your memories won't ever fade away