Oh it's a lonely road
It's a lonely road
Oh won't you hold me lord
Won't you hold me close
Cause I don't really wanna be
I don't wanna be here anymore
Set me free set me free, from all my misery
Cuz it's killing me slow
I wanna see your face
In a place where the homies go
I don't really wanna be
I don't wanna be here anymore
Oh won't you hold me lord
Won't you hold me close
I'm on this journey alone
And I'm lost on a lonely road
Tell me why's it hard to live, but it's so easy to die
I'm careening inside, I hate to be me inside
Take one look in my eyes and see the look of the dead
They're bloodshot cuz a mothafucka seen alot of bloodshed
Enough said, I bump heads with rappers telling fables
Really gambling with my life like the fish game tables
But don't you push my buttons, cuz with beef I'm a glutton
Head huntin mothafuckas til my Glocks become redundant
Imma keep that shit one hunnit, fucken lost in the sauce
I feel my time is coming but I stopped watching the clock
I got out on bail, already all caught up
My tattooed tears taste like saltwater
A whole lotta drama and not lotta role models
I'm sipping Jack Daniels out a warm coke bottle
I'm on the ride of my life but there's no throttle
I'm going nowhere fast, I hope no one follows
I probably lost everyone I ever held close
If I didn't lose em to the grave, It's 25 with an elbow
It ain't gon be much longer til my luck runs out
If I could get away that's when these guns come out
Cuz I ain't going back to prison, I'd rather hit the fence
In the trenches everyday and I'm praying this shit all ends
I'm looking at 11 years cuz my homie pulled rat
Now I know how it feel to know the streets don't love you back
Ain't no future in the front and futures in supermax
The games so watered down, ain't no getting used to that
But the game could never change me because It didn't lace me
A real woman and the real streets really raised me
Can't make me or break me, Its what gangsters do
Think of me when these desert eagle shots go and rain on you
I'll always love the hood In a major way
Even though it fades away Into a stale mate
Empty promises and a packed cell awaits
For my kids sake, I pray that I'm not killed today
They're the last bit of armor you could peel away
If I sealed my own fate, what could I really say?
My regret is that my kids, the ones who really pay
I lift my dreams and hope they're stronger than these ceiling blades
Armed up, in case my karma wants to really play/
God put me in position, I ain't heaven sent
I've probably broken every promise that I've ever meant
Some friendships died with my friends who were like brethren
That's why my hearts filled with crevices that I could never mend
Desert eagle mixed with rage and amphetamines
Leaves a hole big enough to let the devil in
I drink back to cold nights as a kid tremblin
Imma man now who never had a home that I could settle in
Still run the streets as a grown man
Imma street lifer prolly never let it go man
I don't see no future feel like this the end
I'll die a low life thug and your bitches M-C-M
Every bitch loves a flower and Imma wild one
Just as empty as this clip, mark my words Imma die with one
Yeah they'll never take me, never take me alive
And you could never hate me more than I hate me inside
Biggest fear is you seeing me the way that I do
Fuck my enemies, I'm right here waiting on you
Oh it's a lonely road
It's a lonely road
Oh won't you hold me lord
Won't you hold me close
Cause I don't really wanna be
I don't wanna be here anymore
Set me free set me free, from all my misery
Cuz it's killing me slow
I wanna see your face
In a place where the homies go
I don't really wanna be
I don't wanna be here anymore
Oh won't you hold me lord
Won't you hold me close
I'm on this journey alone
And I'm lost on a lonely road