About to hit the dub club Why I feel I'm not enough Got this weight when I wake Feeling like my time is up My potentials feeling stuck Go slow motion feeling rushed Dove in the open, hoping in boats, roped in a gold one, ain't reel it up Never been too quick to judge Never make a scene when I kick the dust Ever since seventeen I've been in the mud Spit a quick sixteen when I'm feelin done Graduated with nineteen still trynna catch up tho Rainy day under a light pole Make the right moves, still seeing typos See my eye inside the storm Why I feel alright alone Bounced around the world across the globe Still feeling the need to find a home I need me to say I'm proud Feelings, don't escape me now Been trying to wash my emotions off All my fault that it's faded now Ambition is draining the essence of me I'm striving for who I am destined to be I'm running but seeing no progress I don't do the treadmills it messes with me Told myself I was gonna smile when I get it But all I do is I sigh when I'm finished Made a list it's been sinking in Still wait till the day where I'm finally wishless Thought I was but I wasn't Always butterflies in my stomach Scared to make a mistake Pray to God I might be something Godless fear in front of my feet Toppled over rinse and repeat Don't need to be caught in the weeds Claustrophobe be cautious don't flee Watchin my peers look at my steps Running too much getting shortness of breath Stabbed in the neck foes wished me dead Make no sense to follow closely Not in tune with my consciousness Conflicting thoughts I don't fall asleep Dark clouds above me it's ominous Feel like another Jonah lost at sea Too pressed with the future to embrace what is present All I got is my artistry And it's far for me Binoculars got me obsolete Lost contentment I'm the one stopping me Hard to keep Pressure brought off of me Often hope I've achieved my fathers dreams Honestly I'm tired of constant feats Just wanna watch me be and non cautiously walk in peace