I drink my coffee black So I can't taste the sweetness I lack I lose myself for days, maybe months, I should rephrase I've grown up a million times Living on my own, nowhere's home I mess up everything I never answer when my phone rings I wish I could get back the nights I don't remember I wish I could go back to the month of December Things were simple, I was able to feel My heart wasn't broken So now I'm just hoping it heals I'm so scared of aging The days feel long but time is fading I can't cry in the shower I think the water flow makes it lose its power I won't wear your jacket home I way too used to being alone I never win, but I come close That's why I reach for another dose I wish I could get back the nights I don't remember I wish I could go back to the month of December Things were simple, I was able to feel My heart wasn't broken So now I'm just hoping it heals