Maybe this life ain't for me
When I'm too used to scraping the barrel
Imposter in myself, it seeps
Every clique makes me the resident sparrow
Tried and tested method
To be with them up there
But I guess it's not just me to save
For the ones back home it don't seem fair
The shivers I get every time I feel pain
Are the only thing grounding this body of mine
And I feel this burning in my eyes
Bright sensations of the sunlight
It seems like a way out
But I fall for it every time
What have I gotta do to get me out of this shit
It's been five whole years and not a thing has changed
Feels like I've got too many eyes on me
But no-ones watching at the same time
What have I gotta do to get back my happiness
I'm so sick and tired of listening to what she says
Is there a saving grace? One, where I don't have to die
Sure you knew everything
Left all your troubles at home all alone in a box
You really think that's all that you got
Tried to explain to my mom and my pops
But I'm late again for work so clearly it's all my problem
Place all your bets on my chance of success
Lace up my shoes put me through it again
The less you're letting me know
I'll carve the space out my own
And yeah, it's all cause of you
The reason I gotta prove
Your expectations drove me down to the floor
I've tried but you ask for more
Stuck sitting silently
I'm starting to believe you've got no way of remorse
Burn through my time abroad
Touchdown but still I find it odd
'Cause who needs me here
When the weather's much better up north
Done what I could to find what I find
All out of sight and all out of mind
A century of push and shove
Tethered to the sky above
I don't want your sympathy
Just remember me when the weight has caught up
Soon or just eventually, we'll be back in place
When the pain has washed off
What have I gotta do to get me out of this shit
It's been five whole years and not a thing has changed
Feels like I've got too many eyes on me
But no-ones watching at the same time
What have I gotta do to get back my happiness
I'm so sick and tired of listening to what she says
Is there a saving grace? One, where I don't have to die