If I wrote it in a letter, would you take the time to read about My sorrows of forgetting How we used to share the mornings Back when we had reached our peak? 'Cause it was a long way down that mountain after Tumbling blindly through, your stones and thorns, it felt so cold To look back and see you with someone I've seen before Should've seen this coming I always feared the lonely road and where it'd take me I'm always falling in love with what's not meant to be So if I decide to disappear Leave dependents second guessing If they're the ones that sent me packing I only hope they'd leave me be 'Cause I've seen a lot of disappointment and I'm Running out of things to tell my mother in appointments When the doctor doesn't know If these pills are even working I know it hurts her bad to see me like this But am I really like this? Should've seen me sobbing On my way home, down the road I've been avoiding No matter where the hell I run, depression finds me No matter how damn tired I get, this keeps on happening I'm always falling in love with what's not meant to be Waste, don't watch me waste away Say, I won't just waste again I changed again for you I lost my brain again for you And all along I knew you were no good But it's hard to be alone and understood I changed again for you I sleep in vain again for you