I thought things be different by now
I thought I'd be lifting my crown
Enemy sneak dissing I frown
I don't want to ever let You down
I thought things be different by now
I thought I'd be lifting my crown
Enemy sneak dissing I frown
I don't want to ever let You down
But I do every day and that goes without saying
Yeah I do everyday and that goes without saying (Look)
Bad decision after bad decision (Mm)
Listening to feelings isn't wisdom (Mm)
Someone show me how to rig the system
Only you can override (It's only You)
Got a, Lying heart yeah it's so deceptive
I wrestle with all of my intentions
Every session, introspection
I would rather run and hide
I thought things be different by now (That's what I thought)
I thought I'd be lifting my crown (Yeah)
Enemy sneak dissing I frown
I don't want to ever let You down (C'mon)
I thought things be different by now (That's what I thought)
I thought I'd be lifting my crown (Yeah)
Enemy sneak dissing I frown
I don't want to ever let You down
But I do everyday and that goes without saying
The bed that I made is the bed that I lay in
The sheets are too thin I can barely feel them (Yup)
Treating His hem like a means to an end, no
I can feel them waves crashing now (Can you hear it?)
The thoughts in my mind clashing now (Can you hear it?)
I need a brief sense of relief
Or for me to see, I have a sense of belief, yeah
Patience running dry (Dry)
Do I let my mind sit or do I run in hide (Hide)
To a temporary fix
I'm never gonna let You down
So bring the waves on and let me drown, save me
If I was honest
I thought I would have been rich by now
As if my God ain't already keep His promise
As if my life already don't feel custom made
As if I don't already drop the ball like everyday
What a shame
I thought momma already be sober by now (Sober by now)
I thought me and wifey would have our second child (Second child)
I thought me and poppa would be on better terms
But we better now, guess you live and learn (That's a fact)
I thought me and Ave would be on jet skis
Somewhere out of the country feeling the best breeze (That's what I thought)
And I be questioning
Am I the lid that's over my own life
Preventing me from these blessings and (Is it me though?)
Glass ceilings got me and my God wrestling (Mm)
Yet all along He's been suppressing the pestilence (Mm)
See all along His pursuit it hasn't stopped yet (Nope)
And it's never been a no, it's been a not yet (Not yet)
I thought things be different by now (That's what I thought)
I thought I'd be lifting my crown (That's what I thought)
Enemy sneak dissing I frown (Yeah)
I don't want to ever let You down
I thought things be different by now (I'm just being honest)
I thought I be lifting my crown (Yeah)
Enemy sneak dissing I frown
I don't want to ever let You down