Thorns of Christ fed to kids as candy I know they say mama loved me so why'd Devil get to touch me? I am pain I am shame I'm impatient with myself Iwasjustastupidfuckingbrat Narcissistic, ignorant to a better me I haven't been the same since she touched me I know it's my fault but now I'm heaving They cleaned me with the cloth of Jesus Covered in cum Greasy with regret I don't want them to know But I'm numb that they do I don't give a shit If they gave a shit But if they did I might not feel so alone It's all the same... Dead animals in shepherds paint - Lead a pack of morons to a morons death I used to be like them No more never again They say I'm full of myself but they're full of shit Anger is what hurt begets I tried to forgive but I could never forget When I went through hell I met the devil he wished me l u c k Submerged in drink Greasy, I repent I don't want them to know But I'm numb that they do I don't give a shit If they gave a shit And that's it Dope sick Sick in the head Bitter of the son With holes in my hands Dope sick Sick of the way They made me ashamed For habits they introduced to c o n t r o l m e After all i'm a dope aren't i? After all i'm a d o p e