I spent so many days in shame I can't escape It's getting harder every day To express the pain I have a pen but its color is not right It used to be blue but it's gotta be black as the night I was your mule But ran out of fuel Throwing me off balance Longing for acceptance You're just making sure I'll never sing the words Each and every moment You have been my owner Never left your home 'Cause I'd be alone It's like my heart's been split in two And I no longer know what to do Traded my sorrow for the guilt But all I really want is that my soul will be still Still there are some days I think of What it's like waking up to find that I have been wrong all this time You were my king And I was just a kid Throwing me off balance Longing for acceptance You're just making sure I'll never sing the words We stay under covers You have been my lover Let the world spin round 'Cause we're underground