Gotta tuck my chain in for this one fam
Yeah
Mummy says, "I should probably listen to what mummy says"
Yeah
Look!
Man I've had depression and anxiety for years
More time I just deal with it
Nah I weren't confiding in my peers
I find it hard to be happy
And I don't voice it much
So when the shit gets a lot
My mood changes like a nappy
And then these females they holla
Tellin' me they care but I don't trust no one dawg
I don't need that wahala
See my replies turn shit
Can't tell I got stability bro
I'm just providing them with small talk and dick
This freestyle's awkward as shit
And people gonna shout me asking why I never spoke
And people gonna tell me, "Come to them when I can't cope"
Bro sometimes I'm low
I don't want no reasoning
I want a high place and rope
And then my pride flares through
Like, "How dare you be so ungrateful?"
Look how the Lord spared you
You went from hopeless and homeless to
Chilling in a home, King
Food in your belly bro
You're sitting in some cold skin
They got no idea
Like I ain't seen my daughter in a whole damn year
Bro I had to write this tryna hold back tears
She's gonna get older
Asking me where I was
And that's the road I fear
It's like how'd this get so fucked?
I think how am I supposed to love this lil' girl
When I hate her mum so much?
Like none of this was planned
I wanna run away, but if I don't sit and face
Then how the fuck am I a man
It's like mirror, mirror who am I?
And that's pennies worth for pounds
For all the times that I thought about suicide
And all dem stupid violations that I threw aside
But if I died cuzzy who would ride?
Nah If I died cuzzy who would care?
Like I was down cuzzy who was there?
Like Kaniva, if I knew I swear fuck that
All them violations now are done ahh
Let a nigga violate
I'm at his mum's gaff
That shit's getting kicked down
I take justice into my own hands
Do my 'ting and do a sit down
Cause people take kindness for weakness
Until I react
And I ain't dead with stab wounds and not breathing
I'm so fucking fed up
Bro I'm so fucking drained
And I can tell a hundred councilors all my story
And nothin' won't fucking change
And I could write a hundred of these freestyles ma bruda
And there'll still be some pain
So much thoughts in my brain you couldn't fathom
And they're still hauntin' my brain
That's why I can't listen to you fake arse rappers
You man are talkin' the same
All these fabricated videos, it's all bullshit
That's why they call it a game
But I been doing this since
Piggy in the middle
Watching EastEnders
Chelsea and Squiggle
You know my dawg
You niggas talkin' bout' the grind
You ain't never been broke
You man are name brand shit
I had Fanta from Lidlad me
Thinking bout' them low days
Really broke days, throwing
Hella niggas squares on some hitting hope wave
I was tryna do everything
Seeing all place, I ain't never been bust cuzzy
Niggas owe me and now, I'm next up
Now it's so shit, we're all mates
Man I can't fuck with this industry
Man are all fake
Send 'em girls too
They can go to hell too
Hella tricks in this game dawg, you gotta hold L2
Oh! I mean L1
Niggas hittin' sell son
See him on the block, come
Posted like the mailman
Slow and steady wins the race
I was moving snail don
Now I be the reason why your girl got her nails done
And dem man good yolks
My niggas road ahh
My jiggas don't ring
Cah they think the phones tapped
So mad
Ruth's watching Ceebeebies
And I was boom boom like Basil Brush
Manna get your bro crashed
No line in your bars
And no we don't condone that
Cause I ain't gotta lie
I'm a grown man
Me I spit the good, bad, the ugly
That's the good times and fuckries
I was quiet for a period
Now I got my flow back
I was on my Jone Jacks
Nah I mean Jack Jones
Stained by a couple brudas
They ain't have no backbones
Good yutes, ran bad boys
Tryna jack phones
Get the sim back
Take his oyster card
Tell him walk back home
School times, couldn't do the cross country
But my niggas push fluid
All across country
I just wanna make tunes and watch my songs buss me
God I'ma beat to my beats
Yeah my songs bust me
Mummy says, "I should probably listen to what mummy says"
I should probably listen to what mummy says
What mummy says
What mummy says
Yeah!
Mummy says, "I should probably listen to what mummy says"
I should probably listen to what mummy says
What mummy says
What mummy says