I would take it all away All the damage and the pain Everything I put on you Nothing I say can make a change I wish this would go away Disgusted in myself Left you alone when you needed help I left you alone when you needed help I turned my back on you Picturesque forms of loss Afraid if this feeling goes I'll have nothing left to hold I'll have nothing left to hold I never gave my all for you Now I have your fall from me I can't see past this grief Dragging days with no relief Worn out and bitter Hopeless, off kilter Never to be free of all this regret Rooted in my brain I will not forget Picturesque forms of loss Afraid if this feeling goes I'll have nothing left to hold I'll have nothing left to hold I never gave my all for you Now I have your fall from me Dwelling on my thoughts and our memories Passing all the time merely just existing Brush off any hope before it turns to delusion Shake awake at thoughts of you Presence in my dreams brings disquietude Darling, I am so sorry You were my home, but I've been absent my whole life Self sabotaged what was good Out of fear for what I knew A looming sense of collapse I want it all back