I was reminded again of the rage that lives inside me Like a disease with outbreaks The medicine and your religion Is a disguise and it defines who you are Here comes everything, the love and the pain The drama and torture that grows insane inside of me In just a moment the air grows thin The PTSD that the footsteps give me Remind me of your presence He turns to face his fears, go Over and over again and again I'm trying to fight this but I never win I was reminded again of why I hate myself Here is no turning back from everything I've done Here comes everything, the love and the pain The drama and torture that grows insane inside of me In just a moment the air grows thin Even now as the years pass by, I see the cause and now know why You only wanted to just get rid of me You hate yourself in your own self pity It seems that sanctuary only comes in dreams Is this whole world as sad as it seems So I made it worth my time to never love you It all comes back to me I take a drink to erase all the damage All the fear that I have I can't stand it, Just go away