I'm sick of standing up for you I never could resist your love despite the truth You're not yourself when you're standing next to me I'll see right through you're transparent, see You're lighting up and staying out I don't know where these issues even came about Where I'm kind to you through and through It seems you've taken that for granted like you always do 'Cause holding on can only last so long Sooner or later you will be gone You said you'd be right here and always be my friend Too bad just like the rest of them it always ends Yeah I'm a fighter but I'm a joke Standing up for myself I end up struggling and choking I'm not the man that I say I am This endless struggle to pull you nearer Resulted with my vision seeing clearer I heard your message read out loud By a friend of mine that was tripping off some Dank pack we got from Boston Had me thinking about all the times we shared That were less than awesome I've been somewhere other than right where you needed me I'm sorry I fall short 'Cause holding on only lasts so long And sooner or later you will be gone You said you'd be right here and always be my friend Too bad just like the rest of them it always Crumbles like a stone Left with my thoughts Words break my bones I only wanted to build a home You wanted not, not to be alone