Guess this is one of those moments
I have to make a choice
Whats wrong whats right gets lost in the noise
I just rewind in my mind and I try to review
So maybe I'll know what to do
I try to hide from these moments
That way I can't regret
The thoughts I fear are ones I forget
They never leave though
They still linger under my skin
This mess that I'm in
That kiss was a domino falling
My whole life I've been stalling
Hoping I could run from it
That bliss was reality calling
It was all so jarring
Everything changed
And I'll never be the same
All that I've known
Is feeling alone
I'm not used to having a throne
If I stand tall
Maybe I'll fall
Then what's the point of it all
Is perfect ever really worth it
Or do we lose things on the way
Why is it I'm always asked for answers
When there's so many things
I can't say
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Guess this is one of those moments
I have to pick a side
Choose one lose one
It's power or pride
I keep the peace or I keep all the people I love
Fate won't you give me a shove
What exactly am I fearing
Just one more year till collage
Why wear a mask and act if it's all only short term polish
When did prevention take all my attention
I used to be a badass loser
Grades were lower worries fewer
Now I've built a wall that's made of stone
All that I've known
Is feeling alone
I'm not used to having a throne
If I stand tall
Maybe I'll fall
Then what's the point of it all
Dad you would know what to say
You always had such a way
You made it all seem so easy
I didn't get that from you
Instead I found something new
I ask what if no one sees me
And even worse if they do
But find disgust in the view
You gave me life and I screw it all
For what
Love
But all that I've known
Is feeling alone
Don't wanna fall off the throne
If I stand tall
And if I fall
What was the point of it all
Will you promise me you still love me
Even if I tell you that I'm
Why am I
Asking you these questions
When I know there's nothing
You can say