The whole point of me recording right now Is to hold myself accountable for the feelings I still feel I thought it was over I thought I was moving forward But I guess that's why I have this to show me what's real The perils of keeping your ex-wife's phone in your possession You're only really saying you've put the past to rest It is all too easy to feed your old obsession You wanna prove you moved on, let's put it to the test So I turn on my speakers Plug them in to the jack But I wasn't prepared For how it'd feel to listen back It was a painful little listen back I had a little listen back My first and last listen back And I heard you cry And I heard three minutes of unfiltered honesty I realized I still love you ♪ Tonight I heard three distances voices A trio of myself saying goodbye I turned over in bed Torn apart by past choices Time to check the record, the record wouldn't lie So I slipped out of bed Made myself a small snack And I put on my headphones And had another listen back It was a painful little listen back I had a little listen back That was my last listen back And I heard us fight But I was a coward and I ran away again That wasn't right And I can't afford to be a coward anymore ♪ Another part of adulting is admitting when you're wrong And doing the hard thing you need to do for yourself For eight years, I tried to tell myself, stay strong As the guilt of what I'd done destroyed my mental health You all know what I'm holding and what I just completed Though hearing my own voice has never felt this strange You were right to leave the record, you were right to give me distance Something deep inside of me is ready now to change This time when I listened I only made it through half Because with sixteen answers of mine missing I can't just listen back It's not enough to listen back I can't just listen back I have to do more than listen back It's not enough to listen back I can't just listen back I have to do more than listen back