It's a phase that I tried to evade Looking back won't fulfil my grace And I just can't see any change Sometimes I can hardly relate To my old self and I feel that I have mended my ways And I feel that I've mended my ways A humble state is to not relate as a force of habit appropriate Any place that I choose to grace I make sure that I am needed there I reflect to reaffirm my place The last time I thought that I was held in this regard I was twenty one years old and had no friends left in the world It's a sign of how far I've come in conjunction with new blood That's found its way to filter through me since I finally had enough I call this my perfect hell Put myself through years of self resurrection It's a story that I'll tell and I'll tell yet again My second decade fostered my introspection Ive been so selfish but I know it's healthy To stand up for yourself and withstand the conflict Iv'e been so selfless I know it's unhealthy To stand down and keep peace and withdraw from conflict Iv'e been so selfish but I know it's healthy To stand up for yourself and withstand the conflict Iv'e been so selfless I know it's unhealthy To stand down and keep peace and withdraw from conflict I can decide for myself I can decide for myself I've regained autonomy I can decide for myself let the rain cleanse bigotry Im not a borrowed insecure young boy anymore I can decide for myself Drink some more liquor to digest everything The Choice cigarettes on your breath no longer bring bad memories I know that you're lonely and you sleep sideways Only after bleeding your loved ones so dry Listen listen listen listen listen to all that I say My world revolves around me Listen to all that I say My world revolves around me Listen listen listen listen to me