I think I've stayed in most of my relationships too long I was chasing a love And a life that I grew up seeing with my parents So it was more-so about an idea in my head Than an actual relationship that I had Also, I just didn't want to be alone Growing up, a brown skin girl A fat girl Essentially growing up feeling undesirable I got older and I had a man that desired me It validated me, and made me feel good about myself Therefore, the content that the validation brought me Was worth the actual pain that the relationship eventually brought And it's a sad, scary, invulnerable place when you need to feel love So much that you're willing to accept anything