I'm afraid that my scars start to bleed again
That my self destructive urges get the best of me
Ceiling fans spinning round and round above my head
While I'm resignating to the voices in my head
I am lost, I am found, I am somewhere else
Screaming phrases of the older versions of myself
It's getting harder to believe myself and what I say
The promises I made to myself went further away
The smell of gasoline. It's running down my skin
I'm searching for escape
I'm burning alive
I'm burning alive
I'm feeling nervous, anxious, furious and so depressed
That the darkness in my mind is breaking free
I am praying to a god that turned his back on me
On my knees I'm begging for something I don't deserve
I tried to drink, tried to drown myself in alcohol
But every single drink felt like a trigger of a gun
The cold metal taste that lasted on my tongue
Reminded me of the blood I drank to stay young
The smell of gasoline. It's running down my skin
I'm searching for escape
I'm burning alive
I'm burning alive
So I lit myself on fire while the flames are getting higher
I'm burning alive while staying alive
I'm searching for escape
I'm burning alive
I'm burning alive
So I lit myself on fire while the flames are getting higher
I'm burning alive while staying alive