I'm forcing myself to stay awake when my heart is racing Taking away all my sleep, paralyzed in my dreams Tired of being so tired all the time, hallucinating Demons that take my last heartbeat away I purge myself of happiness Though I fear that deafening silence My mind's corrupted by this Sadness that takes away my feelings Distorted faces, misfigured by their smiles They act so happy like they're never gonna die Depression's a part of me, it's part of my shit show Am I the crazy one if I don't want to let it go I purge myself of happiness Though I fear that deafening silence My mind's corrupted by this Sadness that takes away my feelings Are you torturing yourself with your will to live If you're depressed why don't you try to be I purge myself of happiness Though I fear that deafening silence My mind's corrupted by this Sadness that takes away my feelings I watch for hours as the clock ticks by Light myself a cigarette to pass the time Everytime I swear it would be the last Why do these happy thoughts make me breathe so fucking fast