I think it's time To air myself I've lived for 30 years and everyday just feels like hell It's getting harder, swallowing water Isn't it strange that I got everything that I want But it still makes me feel like i don't deserve I'm trying, to fit it It's getting harder, swallowing water Pretending, I'm something But I'm nothing to be proud of I took the time, to clear the air I'm at a point in life where I don't Wanna disappear I'm getting older, my mind is colder I'm not the person you learned to live And it still makes me feel like i don't deserve I'm not the guy, you learned to love I've changed a lot, because of love But I'll never make The same Mistake All over again I'm trying, to fit it It's getting harder, swallowing water Pretending, I'm something But I'm nothing to be proud of