Your diamond desires are turning back into coal You can't pick yourself up off the floor And somehow everything's on me When mutual pity walks out the door You know it's time to follow Cuz I'm not sorry you are utterly alone I remain unbroken Though we existed in our own dimension Slouching twisted at the television Finally brokenhearted by what we'd made I'm not crawlin to you Oh it feels so good so far inside myself Someplace you have never ever been Sleeping free, dreaming clean Not to pretend is the greatest relief Now I've been digging in the dirt Planting myself, my hands they smell of earth I will be growing alone and away This I know for sure If I touched you now think we'd both disintegrate Sift through blades of stinging grass Before dribbling through the grate In each of my hands I hold love and hate I'll fall underground now and happily I'll stay I'm not crawlin to you