I'm the queen of catastrophe the faded spade card in your deck of hearts Squint my eyes at the dealer he hesitates I can't let my secrets out keep a straight face and calm the noise Of this debt-ridden hand, I'm trying not to fold Trying not to fold Wrestling time I consciously rewind the second hand Try to find the hours I'm alive I realize, I'm alive Always try to comprehend as the odds of fate, start to wage Do the ides of change make me feel alive? The voices are screaming out, it happens now Don't get weighed down, and fade away Aways Wrestling time I consciously rewind the second hand Try to find the hours I'm alive I realize, I'm alive Oohh I've got a story to tell Oohh I've got a story to tell you You can put me in a box I'll break through the window Hold me down, I'll fight for my life I'm alive! Wrestling time I consciously rewind the second hand Try to find the hour I'm alive I realize, I'm alive Here I go, grow by the light I realize, I'm alive, yeah!