I don't know what matters more The nights or the days? I'm staying up again To look for a stray A lump in my throat A drop in my chest A cramp in my stomach You know the rest Self-fulfilling maybe I just miss my baby It hurts to staple all these posters I feel like you betrayed me I guess I'm really crazy Why did I even expect closure You're probably doing so great You probably don't know I wait You probably don't even care And I'm unaware You're coming back I'll get you when I get you You're coming back I'll get you when I get you So, today I- I laid down And looked down, and it was kind of Unusual because usually when I- when I look down I- Like I'm used to I would see your- you on me But- but today I looked down and I saw- I saw my body I was- I was forced to see my body, basically I don't know. It was just the muscle memory It told me, "Look down," cause usually I look down And you're- you're sitting well- b- on me Kinda like it's a comforting thing: I look down and I see you But but t- I had to look down and I lo- so I just saw my body And it was- it was weird I- I don't like my body I don't like my body at all You're probably doing so great You probably don't know I wait You probably don't even care And I'm unaware You're probably doing so great You probably don't know I wait You probably don't even care And I'm unaware